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When I stabbed him, I didn’t know he was going to die. I know that sounds plainly stupid,  but I murdered him for reasons best known to me. Murdered? That sounds too subtle for what I did; I massacred him, I stabbed every living part of his body and it still surprises me that I could do that to the same person I would have laid down my life for.

I stood for several minutes, holding the knife I used to butcher a living soul like myself but instead of me feeling guilty, I felt fulfilled and really wanted to stab him all over again, making him feel the sharp yet gradual pain he inflicted on me. I walked slowly towards the door, still holding the knife firm in my hands but a gun pointing at me made me loose my grip and I dropped the knife, covered in fear. I walked into the van without fear or regret and a major part of me was beginning to feel I had lost my senses. The torture room made me know I haven’t, because it was there I was conscious of the unforgivable crime I had committed and I knew I was going to die but it didn’t matter, or maybe it did. The execution room brought back the feeling of anger and I wished again that I had actually stabbed him all over like I wanted to but I kept asking myself if my justification was right.

 With tears filled in my eyes, I looked at him with the knife still held firmly and his pleading eyes still searching mine, lost in explanations and apologies. I looked straight into his eyes and realized nothing could stop me from loving him, yet, I dropped the knife and said to him; “I hate you” as I ran out of the house. Still running with tears flowing uncontrollably from my eyes, I found myself feeling how much I love him despite all.

About what he did, my mouth is too heavy to speak of it but it was worth me letting him go, if not killing him.

Wura

Wura is an inquisitive and outspoken young lady who is definitely not your average, regular girl. She is a writer who likes to have fun. This is her personal space, her canvas and most interestingly, her gossip place. She's your everyday gist partner.

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Wura is an inquisitive and outspoken young lady who is definitely not your average, regular girl. She is a writer who likes to have fun. This is her personal space, her canvas and most interestingly, her gossip place. She's your everyday gist partner.

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